RESEARCH 2

It's 18:54 and I'm wearing some old over sized tee, a pair of Adidas joggers and some american apparel socks. I haven't been on here for a few days because I felt so not inspired, everything seemed dull and boring and my head was just not in the ' YOU BETTER WERK' mode, until last night. Last night I have decided to finally start doing some initial drawings from my primary research.

A few weekends ago I went to London for a weekend, just to see some of my fabulous friends and to celebrate one of their birthdays, but this isn't this kind of a blog so nevermind. Since I was inspired by the rebellious youth I thought going into some places such as Dalston Superstore and Wut Club would totally inspire me. I got way too drunk and ended up collecting no research except from a Thai note, a lot of drinks and a free entry courtesy of a long haired guy I would like to thank. Saturday night we bought tickets to KAOS at Electrowerkz. As a drunken mess, in an Uber with a gross taxi driver who needed a full body wax and a new season Nasir Mahzar gear (which I would die for), I finally got to Elektrowerkz. The second I stepped through those doors I knew this was the kind of place to collect research.

Strolling through the club in my UV Cyberdog tee, my new rocks, green eyebrows and an Iphone 6 I tried my best to take photos of all the alternative people to reflect on and get inspired by once I got back to Leeds. The photos were too dark, and not good enough. While standing at the bar with new met friends one of them approached a short girl, dressed way too normal for the environment she was in, Elena. She had a huge ass camera and an MA in photography. The day after I asked if I could use her photos in my sketchbook due to my photography being too dark. She agreed and sent me the photos. I couldn't thank this woman more. She saved my fat ass from coming back to my tutors and presenting them nothing but a major hangover.

Every artist and designer works differently. I like to start by just doing linear drawings from which I pick out shapes, find concepts and ideas to continue onto the development and sampling stage where I get more involved with fabrics, fabric manipulation and experimentation with different media.

Fully painted face, a long beard and a harness, this guy seemed like the kinda guy that my kind of a teenager would have a crush on (I did anyway). I started off by looking at his painted face. I made some linear drawings in which I really looked at the shapes and also illustrated some of those. I especially like the blind drawing I did of him and the unplanned bra that just seemed to happen. This is what I love about blind drawing, its so much more creative, the shapes you get are completely not planned or controlled, and you never know what you're going to get. You either love it or hate it. Either way its not up to anyone but you. The way you look at it and the way you work with it after is something that can make those drawings real blind art.

The harness was something I was really interested in. However, I really had to figure out how to incorporate this idea into my brief in a very intelligent way. I was always kind of inspired by obese people. There is something about their bodies that makes them unisex, you completely loose the body shape and you end up with one 'obese' body . Keeping that thought in the back of my head I thought about those teenagers who really deal with weight problems. Everyone who I know hates something about their body and 90% of the time its the fat issue. I thought about all those girls and boys (also me in the past) buying clothing in sizes to small for them just to feel better about their own body. I always wanted to tell everyone I was a 30 inch in jeans when really, I was a big 32. I have decided to look closer at the rings and the strips, so I did some linear drawings followed by minimal drawings using just line. I really like the fat falling out, it reminds me very much of one of my inspirations for this project, the fabulous and outrageous Leigh Bowerys work. Suffering with being overweight in the past has really got me emotionally attached to this idea.

The boy in white PVC and latex. To me white is much less of a pure colour than black. Growing up in Poland white leather boots only meant one thing, a prostitute, whore or a bitch. I believe this is why this guy stood out to me. I was mostly interested in his latex mask. I like the whole idea of no identity, no gender, no nothing. It's exciting and there is something very sexual about it. Hiding all of your insecurities under a mask or just hiding your identity, either way this was something I wanted to feel inspired by. However at the beginning of last night, I really didn't. I started off by just drawing the shapes, 4 oval shapes was not cutting it for me. I decided to draw it using my left hand and in continuous line, still nothing. I forgot about the head and just started drawing the holes for eyes and lips, overlapping them, I felt like I was hypnotized, I couldn't stop, I felt like the idea was growing on me. I felt the urge to colour in some spots that I didn't like. It really started to remind me of camo. Camo. CAMO! Camo is used to hide, not to be seen, to be mistaken by something completely different.